Plans Have Been Made

It's official. Plans have been made for the upcoming weekend. At last. It's been...over five weeks of solid communication. Of countless nights spent video chatting until someone nods off...countless phone conversations when even sitting in front of the computer is impossible for a variety of reasons...of learning each others daily habits and personality. All without ever seeing each other in person. And I'm scared shitless. Or in this case...sleepless. I didn't sleep a wink last night. Just laid in bed...buzzing with energy. I closed my eyes and thought about him...about what he said...hoping that he thought about me as much as I thought about him. I thought about what to wear...if I should ask him...where I would be sleeping (although he already said I'd be taking his bed solo). The drive up a region I've never been to before. Going to place that I don't know ANYBODY except him. I have to remember that I'm strong, I'm resilient, and I can handle myself in social situation. I just have to NOT psych myself out.

Easier said than done. I do NOT want to mess this up. I don't think I've ever been so interested in someone before. Sure, I don't know everything about him. I don't know if we'll have good "chemistry". He might be different (in a bad way) in real life. But really...if my interest has not only been steady but growing after a solid (almost everyday) communication (not through just online messaging) since the end of June isn't enough to want to take a risk, I do not know what is.

Wish me luck.